i’ve just watched 2012 last night with some of my friends in the nearby mall. before the movie started, we told ourselves that we’re going to compare it to other “end of the world” movies, and what are their differences.

one thing was, the Statue of Liberty was not shown there And despite the movie being more than 2 hours, the movie was not boring nor dragging. i love every minute of it, especially those destruction parts. AMAZING!

i’m not really good in making reviews, nor do i want to write any spoilers. but one thing’s certain, the movie’s really good and i highly recommend it! think i’d watch it again sometime soon

2 more weeks before i go home. but the excitement of going home has not been the same as before. right now, i’m excited to see my family and meet my friends. but when i think about going home, i can’t help but also think of the expenses that my trip would incur.

i know, i know.. i’ve been very bitter of the effects of recession (read: very bitter) to my personal finances. i know that i should be grateful that i still have a job, as compared to thousands of people who lost theirs. maybe i’m just frustrated, and stressed. and with christmas just around the corner, it added to the pressure.

and what adds more to my frustration, is the feeling that the people back home doesn’t really understand the situation. i’m not saying that they don’t understand me, or at least try not to. but i FEEL that i’m the only one who could really understand how big my problem is. or how affected i am of all of this.

okay.. stop. i need to stop thinking about these.

Since I’m so bored in the office, I decided to take this survey. I think I’ve already answered this a while back in my other blog. Anyway, I think some of my answers are already different from before..

Never mind the hair color, favorite movie, embarrassing moment questions; here’s some real different ones. Highlight everything, (copy and paste) change the answers, and forward this to as many people as you can. And remember to send it back to the one who sent it to you first.

1. First Name:
> Marizel

2. Were you named after anyone?
> I thought I was named after my dad (his name’s Marceliano). But when I asked them, they said that the name “Maricel” was famous that time (thanks to 2 famous local actresses). They just changed the “c” to “z” to make it more unique.

3. Do you wish on stars?
> Before, when I was younger. But right now, no.

4. Which finger is your favorite?
> ring finger.

5. When did you last cry?
> I shed some when me and my boyfriend had an argument last month. Pero yung hagulgol na iyak, around February, and it was caused by a friend.

6. Do you like your handwriting?
> Hmm.. so-so.

7. What is your favorite lunch meat?
> Chicken

8. Any bad habits?
> Of course! I trust too much.. And I’m too nice that people tend to abuse my kindness.

9. What is your most embarrassing CD on the shelf?
> I don’t have a CD right now, everything’s in my PC.

10. If you were another person, would you be friends WITH you?
> Of course! I’m a very nice friend, and loyal. And no bore moment since I like having fun and I like to chat and hang out.

11. Are you a daredevil?
> Hmm.. not so. I would try things that I haven’t tried, especially in sports. I still have to conquer my fear of heights.

12. Have you ever gossip?
> Yeah, but I’m trying not to.

13. Do looks matter?
> Yep. But I could say that personality and characteristics weighs more than this.

14. Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid?
> Hahaha. Of course! Especially Japanese words. lol

15. do u think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?
> No. But I’d like to believe that there is.

16. Does fish have feelings?
> Yeah, I think they do. They’re living things after all.

17. Are you trendy?
> Not until when I came here in japan. But I still prefer being comfortable than follow fashion trends here.

18. How do you release anger?
> Hmm.. mostly I talk it out. Then I write about it. Then after that, most of the times, the anger had subsided.

19. Where are your second homes?
> My unit here in Nagoya. And my friend’s house. And Starbucks!

20. What was your favorite toy as a child?
> Jackstones! I also liked Clue-do and other board games.

21. what subjects are u useless at?
> Those with memorization. I hate memorizing words and dates.

22. Have you ever been on radio or television?
> Yup. First was UAAP 2002, I think. DLSU-ADMU Championship. People said they saw me waving a green balloon. 2nd was here in Nagoya. A cable TV station made a feature about our client’s company.

23. Do you have a journal?
> Yup. I have a diary (which I hardly update) and a LOT of online journals.

24. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
> Not as much as I did before. And when the situation calls for it, I still prefer not to use sarcasm unless I’m really pissed off.

25. Have you ever been in a mosh pit?
> Never

26. What do you look for in a guy/girl?
> I want someone who’s sweet, sensitive and a gentleman. I also want someone thoughtful. A traditional pinoy. And of course, I want someone who is responsible and someone who is resourceful.

27. What are your nicknames?
> Mazel, Marizel, Zel, Mazelly

28. Would you bunjee?
> Maybe. But I really want to try it.

29. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
> No

30. What are you worried about right now?
> Recession. My finances. My boyfriend’s new work.

31. Do you ever wear overalls?
> Yeah, I did.

32. Do you think that you are strong?
> Yes.

33. What’s your favourite ice cream flavor?
> Vanilla. Plain flavors. I don’t like flavors that are too sweet.

34. Whats your favourite colour?
> Right now, I’m more of a black-and-pink or black-and-purple person. But I also like green and blue.

35. What is your least fav. thing in the world?
> To finally realize what you want to do with your life, but you’re stuck in a situation where you can’t get out nor do anything about it.

36. What do you get called mostly at school?
> Mazel..

37. Are you in love w/ anyone?
> Yes

38. How many people have a crush on you right now?
> I have no idea.

39. Who do you miss right now?
> My family, my boyfriend and friends.

i can’t believe that it’s already november. and just a few more weeks and christmas would be here soon. i can’t help but feel excited over the holidays this year. i’m going home for christmas!

so let the countdown begin! just 5 more weeks before i go home ^-^  and for all my family and friends, there wouldn’t be any pasalubongs for you since it’s recession here. so don’t expect any hehehe.

“Isn’t it weird that there are people who are such a huge part of your life one minute, and then absolutely nothing the next?”

got this quote from Lea Salonga’s Multiply site. really sad but true. i could name a couple or so people who were really a huge part of my life, and then all of a sudden, they just disappeared.

can’t help myself but feel disappointed (and maybe regret) for the lost relationships. i guess nothing could be done about it, i can’t live forever in the happy memories that we’ve shared with each other. though i still feel betrayed, i guess i really can’t do anything about it. maybe i just need to accept that they’ve moved on with their lives without me in it, and i should move on myself and quit sour-graping about it.

“Forget the former thigns, do not dwell on the past” – Isaiah 43: 18